Once, I thought I got on the wrong car, and then God patronized me to let me see the beautiful scenery again. Until now, I realized that it was just a mirage, I thought I had found my passion, but I didn’t know that it was drinking poison to quench thirst at all.
Life is getting better and better, but my mood is getting blurred day by day. On the way home from work, I always stop and go. What about going back? It is nothing more than eating, watching TV, surfing the Internet and sleeping, day after day. At this time, the man named Luo Ning happened to appear…… His fire lit up my dry wood.
In the spring of 2000, I married Mu Qing.
Mu Qing said, let’s stay together until our teeth fall out, until we are so old that we can only lie on the rocking chair, and I will say I love you. I married him for his words. Every woman hopes to last forever, and I am no exception. When I met Mu Qing, I was 28 years old and not too young. All previous love affairs failed to move towards marriage for various reasons. Maybe all beautiful women would waste their time, it is not for no reason to say that beauty is too thin. Because I was born beautiful, I felt that I had the capital to be picky and thought that I had a lot of time to tangle with men. But when I looked back, I found that there were fine lines in the corner of my eyes, so I thought of getting married.
The first time I met Mu Qing, I was annoyed with the introducer, and this kind of man was also introduced to me? He is not a millionaire, but a small civil servant. He is so ordinary and tall as me. Why should I marry him? But after several months, I still got married, not only because I met him when I wanted to get married most, but also because he gave me a sense of reality and safety, and took me off work without hesitation every day, after taking me home, I put on an apron and went to the kitchen to do this. Most of my former boyfriends were hanging out in bars, saying something irrelevant to real life, mu Qing made me seem to fall to the ground from the air. He looked at me and said, Yani, in the end, everyone wants to live a life of daily necessities. This sentence touched me. Even if I am princess, I would finally get married and have a baby to eat, drink and scatter. So I moved my mind to marry him.
I thought that I was really willing to live a daily life with Mu Qing since then, but soon I got bored. After a long period of time, Mu Qing’s carefulness and love couldn’t touch me like a common saying. On the contrary, he felt that his mother-in-law was not masculine. At that time, we had been married for 3 years, and the house was changed to 140 square meters, and we were providing a car. Mu Qing became the deputy manager of the company. Life is getting better and better, but my mood is getting blurred day by day. On the way home from work, I always stop and go. What about going back? It is nothing more than eating, watching TV, surfing the Internet and sleeping, day after day.
At this time, the man named Luo Ning happened to appear…… His fire lit up my dry wood.
When did you get along with a man alone? It seems to be a long time ago.
I went home from work that day and got out of the elevator. I saw a man with long hair sitting at my door in jeans and plaid shirt with several holes. I stopped from a distance and thought it was a robber. After a closer look, I understood who this person was.
Luo Ning. I called his name.
He raised his head, how could you know me?
I took out the key, opened the door and said, do you understand? I am the hostess of this store.
Yanni? He also called out my name.
No, I said, call me sister-in-law. I know Mu Qing is half a year older than you. He smiled and said, “I am older than you, just call your name.
Luo Ning is a close friend of Mu Qing’s college classmates. It is said that he likes wandering by nature and does not like living in accordance with the rules. Therefore, after finishing his career, he began to wander around the world. I remember Mu Qing said at our wedding that it would be better if Luo Ning came back, but unfortunately he is now in Tibet. After I entered the door, Luo Ning put the big bag underground and asked me, when will Mu Qing come back? We haven’t contacted each other for two years. I miss him so much.
I said: Mu Qing went on a business trip.
Oh, he took a look at me, then I will go to the hotel.
I said since I came, I would leave after dinner. Then I called Mu Qing, and then gave the phone to Luo Ning. They said excitedly on the phone. Luo Ning was a little “flaunting” when talking “, I heard Mu Qing also” flaunting his teeth and claws “on the phone. I didn’t expect that such an honest person like Mu Qing had the time to show his personality. Finally Luo Ning gave me the phone, but what Mu Qing shouted to me on the phone was: Don’t let Luo Ning go. I will be back two days later and cook something delicious for my brother. He loves chili, buy more back.
Don’t let him go? Let a big man stay in the home where only I am a woman? When I put down the phone, I couldn’t help being surprised by Mu Qing’s carelessness. But what was strange was that there were also some secret surprises in my mind. When did it happen to get along with a man alone? It seems to be a long time ago.
That night I cooked a table of dishes, including boiled fish, fried shredded pork, mapo tofu, fish-flavor eggplant…… Almost all were spicy dishes. Luo Ning looked at a table of dishes and said, “Mu Qing is really lucky to marry a wife like you who goes to the Hall and the kitchen. My face turned slightly red.
How terrible it is. I seem to fall in love with this wild man. Since I was a child, I like this man full of wandering atmosphere, eager to wander with such a man.
That night, Luo Ning didn’t leave. I watched his photo album with him all night, in which there were wonderful scenery in Tibet and Qinghai, and those beautiful pictures he published in magazines. While watching, he told me what happened during the trip. Strangely, I dared not to look at his eyes, and occasionally met his eyes, so I always avoided first. I felt so familiar that night that it seemed that I was back at the age of ten or nine years old. The next day, I washed his loose plaid shirt and basked it on the balcony. After drying it, I folded it carefully, smelling the fragrance on it and feeling a little dizzy.
Mu Qing came back in advance. Luo Ning ran over and they hugged each other.
In the evening, Mu Qing begged for joy. I responded positively, but what I thought in my mind was Luo Ning. At this time, he was right next door to us. I could hear him humming Chen Lin’s song “Love is Love”-love is love. Mu Qing said, this crazy child, how many girls have been hurt, should find someone to marry him.
I put my hands around Mu Qing and put my tears on his chest. How terrible it is. I seem to fall in love with this wild man. Since I was young, I like this man full of wandering atmosphere. I am eager to wander with such a man.
After struggling for a while, I immediately fell into his arms softly. This man, who was as fresh as a plant, had already become my lover and lover.
Under Mu Qing’s persuasion, Luo Ning seemed to finally have the plan to settle down. A few days later, he said he had found a house and was going to move out. That day, he left and looked at me before leaving. Then he narrowed his eyes and smiled and said softly, goodbye. Two very magnetic words, I also laughed, but I felt tears flowing. It was doomed that this was the beginning of the story. It was just the beginning. I knew that I couldn’t escape from temptation.
As expected, I received a call from Luo Ning the next day. He said, Yani, can you come and help me? It’s too messy here. I don’t know how to deal with it. It was indeed a mess. When I changed into a home clothes and started to work, my heart was suddenly filled with great happiness and happiness. It turned out that loving someone could be so happy, even if I did housework for him, even if I was really tired, I was happy. Suddenly, I thought of Mu Qing. He did these things for me. Was he happy in my heart?
For two days, the house was so clean and tasteful by me. There were Sunflower floating on the curtain, pots of green plants on the balcony, and Chinese knots I bought on the red sofa, when I went to the kitchen to cook soup for him, he suddenly hugged me from behind: Yani, you gave me the feeling of my home. I struggled for a moment, and immediately fell into his arms. This man, as fresh as a plant, had already become my lovesick and lovesick girl.
The story between him and me started like this. From then on, I came to this cabin belonging to him and me every few days. I like to wear an apron to cook for him and wait for him to come back with the light on. When Mu Qing called again and again, my answer to him was always that I was working overtime. Poor Mu Qing believed it, I didn’t notice anything. When I came home late at night, there was a bowl of soup he cooked for me on the table, saying that I should pay attention to nourishing when working overtime.
Strangely, at that time, my brain might have been obsessed with it, bearing Mu Qing’s love, but I didn’t even feel guilty in my heart, even he pulled my hand, I will shake off him at once. Are you bored? At that time, my heart was full of Luo Ning, and when I heard Mu Qing mention his name occasionally, my heart beat constantly.
It turned out that my joys and sorrows had nothing to do with Luo Ning. What he enjoyed was only my happy appearance. I thought I had found my passion, but I didn’t know that it was drinking poison to quench thirst.
I think if it hadn’t been for that serious illness, I might still wander between the two men somehow. And a serious illness finally let me know what is true love. In the physical examination of the unit, I was found to have a lump in my breast. The doctor said that I didn’t know whether it was benign or malignant. It was better to have a pathological examination. If it was malignant, I had to have a breast resection.
Knowing this evil news, the first thing I told was Luo Ning, who once praised my plump and sexy breasts over and over again. He said that there were both the firmness of young girls and the fullness of young women, and my breasts may become two holes from now on, so what I want most is his comfort. But when I told him the news, what I heard him saying was: is a woman called a woman without breasts? How can that be? Is this what he said? On this side of the phone, I was stunned, tears flowed out of my eyes. I stopped the phone and it seemed that I was awakened by the spring thunder. It turned out that my joys and sorrows had nothing to do with him. What he enjoyed was just my happy appearance! I thought I had found my passion, but I didn’t know that it was drinking poison to quench thirst at all.
Mu Qing, who knew about my illness, came back from Yunnan that day. He risked being fired by the company because it was a big project of tens of millions. He came to my bed and said, there is nothing more important than my wife. What does it matter without breasts? As long as you. I didn’t want to cry, but I wanted to hide my panic. But tears revealed my secret. What qualifications did a woman with red apricot have for his love?
Fortunately, the result of the disease examination finally confirmed that I had benign tumor. After chemotherapy and drugs, my breast was finally intact. On the day when I was ill, Mu Qing went to pick me up. I said, I don’t deserve to be your wife. It’s me who makes you wait for me to go home again and again. It’s me who makes you cook food. It’s hot and cold, or we can divorce. Unexpectedly, Mu Qing took my hand and said, “silly child, go, go home. He said, it must be that I don’t love you enough. That’s why I let you walk into another man’s arms. I forgive you…… It turned out that I could love someone so much that I felt wronged. I hugged Mu Qing tightly, and tears flowed into his hair. The person I loved most was always by my side, but I almost lost it, I have love again. In this life, I will firmly grasp it and never let it go.
Every woman may have an affair once in her life. My affair is built in the imaginary sky, which is unrealistic, even pale and weak, so weak that even tears feel redundant. A man like Luo Ning is actually just a plant, a plant without any emotion. The fate of falling in love with the plant cannot wait for autumn. In fact, the real days are in the defense of Mu Qing and me, in a porridge and a meal.